Why Am I Killing Myself?

I am a big junk food addict. I love outside, fried, sweet,sour food! I am usually willing to try new things. Well of course if its  halal and all.

I have recently had a new prospective of healthy living. My brother who eats so much junk food, but is forever working out and playing sports claims what he is doing is okay. He says "It doesn't matter because I work it off later" I cringe because this is not the point I was trying to make. Its the fact you are taking unhealthy food and forcing yourself to produce energy from it and all that other good stuff your body need.

I started to really think about the human body in a whole different way.

Imagine you have this body to take care of. Sort of like a pet you love and care for. Your respoinsiblity at the moment is to let this 'pet' live longest and healthiest life it can. So what do you do? You feed it the most healthiest food and things it needs to continue its day. So you look at your healthy eating guide where it has all the food groups, but there is one problem. Your 'pet' desires all these  unhealthy food. It doesn't want to eat your healthy food. So it starts eating things like Oreo cookies which does have an ounce of anything beneficial. Its as if you are eating a chocolate cover pencil. Taste good but, is useless for you body. Your body needs certain vitamins and other nutrients from food. So you continue feeding this 'pet' junk.
 Inside its body, it pumping in and out filth. Trying to form energy by every little thing it can get. Over time you notice your pet's skin is dull, it is more tired/lazier, they are not thinking to the best to it's ability. Guess what, you are killing your pet, or should I say you are killing yourself.

With that being said the body always desires what is not good for them. If there was a donuts vs apples, most people would take the donuts even though the apples are more benefical.

What I need to work on it not  giving in to my desires. Promote healthier living. I always knew this information, but just never cared. I want to feel more alive, less tired and energetic. I want my brain to work at it best capacity. Exercising is also something I will try to work on. My older brother has insanity so I am going to try that.

Wish me luck guys.

The Non-Hijabi Vs The Hijabi

I believe non-hijabies get treated differently than hijabies ! 

I remember  I was in a lecture and I didn't understand a certain concept so I asked a guy be near by. Take note that 85% of my classmates are males. He gave me a half ass response that left me in confusion as before. A few minutes later a non-hijabi girl asked a similar question and he explained it to her in great detail. I am not sure, but I think he was doing the work for her as well. All I wanted was help :(

You are probably saying that this is just one case, but in fact this has happen to me many times.

I remember another incident where I went to this tutoring room in the university and a male student was helping me with the homework. Take note that most of the tutors in those room are males. A girl wearing tight jeans, tank top and had big... you know whats walked in. Yeah she was pretty. Every guy went up to her asking if she needed help. Even the guy who was helping me left me! I was dumbfounded. I was staring at them and the girl. At first I was confused at what had happened.  I just ended up packing my stuff off and left because obviously no one was going to help me for long. This actually happened several times   in the tutoring room. I felt embarrassed because I know I was being treated because of how I looked. These guys who were tutors weren't even ugly. :/ Great dissed by attractive guys. 

You can argue that these girls are getting treated solely on how good looking they are, but is there really something wrong with that?

Sort of makes me feel like a queen walking :P

On the other hand I feel I receive more respect as a hijabi. With practicing brothers, they lower their gaze when they walk past you and they have a different tone when they talk to you. Its like they see you as a human... if that makes sense. Even the not so practicing Muslim guy will talk to me different than how he talks to the that super duper pretty girl. Like I am equal to him. I am not sure if I am making sense. I remember talking to my brother about this and he said its because a hijabi reminds you of Allah. I guess this hijab reminds them of religion again. Of course the conversations with guys seem very formal and some girls say they would not want that and would want him to just act chill but, I guess it is respect. Like the way he talks to his mother in a way. 

Even some non-Muslim guys treat me differently. Its like they do not know how to talk to me so they are quieter and politer. I guess they are thinking " How do I talk to this covered girl? I don't want to offend her." For the most part they avoid me, I am guessing I am unfamiliar territory or what a friend told me " The chase to get with this girl is to hard"

Side story: The other day I was talking to the director of marketing of business, I was asking him a question. I must mention he was really handsome guy :P. Anyways, he presented his hand for a handshake and I told him "Sorry, I do not shake hands with men.". He automatically started apologizing and turning red. Funny guy. I know for a fact some Muslim girls would of shook his hand just because he was handsome.I just want to say, just because someone is good looking NOT a good enough reason to give yourself up in the slightest bit. Please girls be strong, you too guys I am routing for you all!

I honestly don't have any guy friends. There is the occasional ones in your class were you are say hi to and do the polite small talk, but besides that I do not interact with guys for fun, strictly business you can say. I can say that this is probably due to my hijab. I do not talk to guys for fun because when you wear hijab its not just how you look its the way you behave.

 I defiantly can conclude that a non-hijabi gets treated differently than hijabies in most cases.

Do you guys agree because these are from my personal experiences and observations?