Obviously my opinions are different, but this is how I was feeling that day. Now you guys realized how much I sensor myself. I should of posted this, but I was to scared. Silly me.
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I was reading a book when I came across this part of
"Kylie stared at her best friend and realized how different they'd become these last six months. It wasn't just Sara's need to party or the fact she'd given virginhood. Okay,so maybe it was those two things, but it seemed more."
I instantly understood EXACTLY how Kylie felt. Funny never thought a white girl and me could relate to each other in that aspect.
Pretty much losing my best friend. Things have been odd, our perspectives are not on the same page anymore. Which usually wouldn't bother me, but for her this is too far my friend! I always hear people saying how people can be best friends one year and next be total strangers. I doubt thats going to happen with us, but I learnt to expect the unpredictable with her.
Well, it all started.....
Let me just be honest and jump into it. I hate the new friend of mine, no I actually depise it what she has become. Sure I can talk to her normally but, what I don't agree with lots of things she does now, but she simply doesnt care. You know what your probably thinking
" Accept your friend for who she is...."
I dont need to hear this crap, I would accept it if she wasn't my friend and if I didn't care about her, but I DO CARE. and it bugs me that I have to accept it becase I CARE SO MUCH. If I say anything all I really am doing is pushing her away and if I accept it I would be a horrible friend. Friends do not let other friends fall between the cracks. (Imagine me saying this fast that why its a run on sentence lol)
Right now I feel like all I can do is watch in silents as my friend falls and it's really hard to pick her up now. I dont think there is anything I can do. Should I accept it, that she is totally different and not the same person?
She may still look and wear the same clothes as my old friend, but I can hardly recongize her T_T
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Thank God she has been catching herself. I have seen a light in her again. She definitely not a lost cause.
If people can't change, whether for the good or for the worse, then they can't move forward. If a change doesn't occur, then a person cannot see from a diffrent perpective in life. The won't learn new lessons and have personall experience and opnions. Alhamdulilah that she has been catching herself, and that you're seeing a light in her again. But if the same situation were to occur again, then face her straight in the eyes. Don't avoid it. Tell her honestly what you feel, and show her that she's worth the wait and the struggle. Hope this helped.
ReplyDeletePS: No one is a lost cause; they just needs time, that's all:)
No one is a lost cause I agree. I wrote this long ago when I was extremely frustrated. I keep her in my prayers and I try my best to be there for her. That's what best friends do. Stick by during the bad and the good.
ReplyDeleteI am actually shocked someone I do not know is reading my blog. THANK YOU FOR THE COMMENT YOU ARE MY FIRST FOLLOWER!
Wow :(
ReplyDeleteWrote this so long ago during a very frustrating time. I didn't know what to do. Its not like this anymore though. Things have gotten way better in my opinion.
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